Monday, September 27, 2010

1st Month . . .

Noah,
You are growing so fast and changing every week! You met your Pediatrician for the first time on September 2nd. Dr. Yelton thought you were precious! You weighed 8lbs 3oz.

You are on a regular 3 hr feeding schedule and eating 4oz at each feeding.
You are trying so hard to sleep through the night, but just not there yet!

About 2 weeks ago you started cooing- we love hearing your little voice! Your sister, Camille, says "He's talking to us" when she hears you coo.
Nick, Camille and Carlee all love you so much and try to be the best helper with you. Carlee loves to hold and feed you and occasionally Nick will ask to help too.

We are looking forward to watch you grow and I can't wait to see you smile in the next month or so!

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Purpose of Adoption . . .

Before I write anything on the Purpose of Adoption, our little Noah turned 1 month old last week! I am looking forward to watching him grow. He is changing every week and getting bigger. Today he was watching me as I was talking to him (probably thinking how goofy I look!) and he almost cracked out a smile, but couldn't quite get it out. Hopefully in another month he will start that.

As I was doing my quiet time I began reading in Ephesians 1. I pulled up a sermon by John Piper on Ephesians 1 (here is the link to his website www.desiringgod.org). In verses 3-6 it says, "Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in Christ with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places. Even as he chose us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and blameless before him. In love, he predestined us for adoption through Jesus Christ, according to the purpose of his will, to the praise of his glorious grace, with which he has blessed us in the Beloved."

The first statement that Piper makes is this: "Adoption is one of the most profound realities in the universe. I say "universe" and not "world" because adoption goes beyond the world. It is greater than the world, and it is before the world in the plan of God, and it will outlast the world as we know it. Indeed it is greater than the "universe" and it is rooted in God's own nature."

As I thought about this statement, it hit home and is SO true! God had a knowledge of those he adopted as his sons- those whom he drew to himself and those whom have accepted him as Lord and Savior of their life. Adoption is an awesome thing to comprehend because it was created by God before he even created the entire world and universe! That makes my adoption in Him very special.

I see this in relation to our experience in the process of adopting Noah. It is a profound thing to come across a human who will go through 9 months of carrying a part of them and then sacrificially and selflessly being willing to give up that child so that that child may have a better life. Our hope is that He will grow up to be a Christian man and in building our relationship with his birthmom that she may come to know Christ one day as well (if she already doesn't). This is how adoption goes beyond the world and universe. It is eternal!
Another neat factor is that God had little Noah planned to be apart of our family long before we ever thought of adopting. God is soveriegn and knows all things. God had him placed in our family long ago! This is why we are trying to keep our focus on the conviction of why we chose to adopt rather than the "what if's". In obedience to God He will take care of all things! We are simply called to obey Him.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Meeting my NeeNee and PaPa for the first time!

This past weekend my Parents were able to come up since it was Labor Day weekend and spend Sunday afternoon and night with us and most of the day on Monday too.

I was really looking forward to their visit, as I usually am, but this time they were meeting little Noah Jackson- our newest member of the family!

When my parents arrived, I didnt' even get a hug or a hello :)- my mom, aka NeeNee, was so thrilled to finally meet Noah! In fact I dont' think she even put him down for a minute the whole weekend!

My dad enjoyed holding him and seeing him for the first time as well!

This is just another experience to add to our wonderful experience of adding to our family through adoption!

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

The black dress . . .

As I was doing laundry and hanging up some clothes, I came across this black dress. I couldn't help but to stop what I was doing for a moment and just look at that black dress of mine. It was the dress I wore the Sunday we went to go and meet the birthmom of little Noah.
I couldn't help to remember how nervous I felt on the way there . . . not really knowing what she would look like or how she would react to meeting us and seeing Noah again for the first time since the hospital- would she rethink her decision and possibly change her mind!?!
Then I recalled actually meeting her there outside the mall - she was about 5'8" and caramel in color and dressed rather plainly and her hair simply all brushed back.
Then there sitting in Applebees, where she chose to eat lunch, little Noah woke up and I asked her if she wanted to hold him and she did . . . and I even got a picture of it!
Then as we sat with her and waited for her ride to come and pick her up, we chatted a little and gave her a small gift- a memory book of our family and a necklace that had a pendant of a heart and in the middle of the heart was a silhouette of a mother and a baby.
Then came the hardest part- saying goodbye. Well, it wasn't hard for me to say goodbye to her because I really don't even know her but the emotion of her saying goodbye to her son, who she carried for 9 months and delivered. I couldn't even imagine going through all that to only say goodbye.
The black dress reminded me of something good . . . something SO selfless, and a genuine love! She loved her son so much that she wanted for him to have a better life than she could give him (her words). How amazing to be so selfless and to make such an amazing choice of choosing life!